Hi lovelies,

just wanted to pop in and apologize that i've been gone for like 6 months. school has been really eating at me this semester plus i'm more involved in other shenanigans that take up a lot of time. but i have been keeping up with your wonderful selves even if i don't comment. i'll try to change that but no guarantees. so if you want to remove me, feel free to do so, no hard feelings~ i'll try to get in touch with all of you soon. <3

Hello my dears! This is my second day back and my first day of classes. I love having a month long break but I guess it's a bit too long. I'm actually excited to be back here and going to classes. We'll see how I change my tone in a couple of weeks. XD

I got up at 7:30ish to be able to go watch the inauguration. After having a bit of trouble finding Mai, we finally settled down (as much as we could in a massive sea of people) to watch the President get sworn in. Man, I know it's not as great watching it live in DC but watching the entire thing live on a huge screen just had this effect. I was extremely proud of our country and just felt a lot of love and support shown by everyone who cheered for Obama.

Hopefully my classes won't be too bad. On MWF, I end at 12 but on TuTh, I go from 8 in the morning to 5. :/ Boo. PLUS I spent $287 on books today. The economy is crap and I'm still supposed to pay that much for college textbooks? Fail.

And can I say that I love Boys over Flowers? Like seriously, I'm supposed to be sleeping early and I'm not because I NEED TO WATCH THIS DRAMA. Oh well. Nihongo with Camille tomorrow. Eee I'm excited! <3 OH YEAH. I have SNSD's 'Gee' stuck in my head. :x It's horribly addicting. AND SO CUTE. I want to learn the dance hahah.

Hey guys! Wow so my winter break has been extremely full of catching-ups and reunions. I never thought that I would be too busy for that intrawebs but I have. Amazing huh? There have been so many performances and things that I want to get to but I don't have the time! Plus my connection rate is really sucky compared to what I got at Berkeley so that is not helping matters hahaha.

Okay yeah so I was TOTALLY freaking out about my GPA this semester. I was totally depressed because I wanted to get decent grades my first semester and I thought I would end up with a C in Anthropology. Surprisingly, I scraped by with a 3.4 this semester.
Japanese 1A - A
Linguistics 55AC - A-
Anthropology 3AC - B
Astronomy C10 - B

Not entirely fantastic but I can always improve. I'm looking towards next semester as a fresh start. I can't wait to be able to improve my GPA. \m/ /nerd status 8D

o1. Graduating from high school! This was such a huge milestone and I never thought I would reach it. Sure it's only high school and I have to wait ANOTHER four years to be able to graduate from college but still! I can look back to freshmen year and remember a lot of stuff. It's so weird to see how much I (and other people) have changed.
o2. Turning legal this year and having a wonderful birthday. I got to spend it with close friends and I would not have it any other way.
o3. Surviving my first semester of college. I thought I would never get through the semester. Gosh, time really does fly when you're not looking.
o4. My first and last prom. I'm sad that I only got to go to one prom but I guess that's what made it even more special.
o5. EDC and getting my industrial piercing. These were like the two most rebellious things I have ever done which is weird coming from me because I'm what people usually call anal-retentive about certain things hahah.

So that's that! You guys have been such a huge support this year and I can only hope that you guys will stay with me for 2009. HAPPY NEW YEAR AND I LOVE YOU ALL! <3

_{I'm sure I'll be online a lot more when everyone goes back to school and I'm still enjoying my vacation. XD So hopefully you'll see more of me in a week or two!}

Whoa guys, I'm sorry I've been gone for awhile AGAIN. But finals have slowly been sneaking up on me and here I am, trying to study for them! It's weird that my first semester of college is almost over.

What sucks is I have two finals on the same day, Astronomy and Anthropolgy. The first from 12:30 - 3:30 and the next one from 5-8. -__- At night. Ridiculous I say. I heard that we're not even going to have real desks for Anthropology. Just lap boards to write our three essays on. For 3 hours. @_@ Shoot me now please hahah. Speaking of Anthro, I'm going to get my bridal paper back on Tuesday! I'll let you guys know how I did, I hope it was okay! ::crosses her fingers:: Just 11 more days until I get to go home, I can't wait!

And as much as it kills me to say this, I don't think I'm doing Christmas Cards this year. I know I said I would and I really really want to. But I just don't have the time, with all the studying I have to do. And I'm going to be extremely busy back home and by the time I do get around to making cards, it's probably going to be too late.

Also, I'll probably do a baby friends-cut soon. :/ I feel like I don't have enough time to devote to reading/commenting on some entries and some people I just haven't gotten the time to know at all. It's really selfish on my part but it's the truth. If anyone wants to cut me as well, feel free. Hopefully there will be no ill feelings either way and I wish you luck with your lives. <3

Oh and an interesting thing happened to me today...

Hobo: Your pants are falling down.
Me: Oh, sorry. *pulls pants up*
Hobo: No no no, you don't need to do that, it's perfectly all right with me. :DDDD

So my friend Sean went to Taiwan for about a month. He just came back a couple of days ago with some shines. I am now the proud owner of Never Ending Wonderful Story, Queen of Pirates, and w-inds. works 6. ::beams:: I am so pleased and happy, it is ridiculous.

Other than that, I haven't done much anything else except throw myself into watching things I know will distract me once I start school. I've finished Last Friends, RH Plus, Hana Yori Dango 1 & 2, and lots and LOTS of episodes of D no Arashi. I swear, those things are hilariously addicting. I have never even given thoughts to some of the topics they show so it's really all entertaining and fascinating at the same time. I've been on an extremely huge Arashi kick lately, I love those boys. <33333 I've also been good with keeping up with Maou, Code Blue, and Yasuko to Kenji. *-* Why so good Japanese dramas with JE boys?

I've been absorbed in packing over the few days and it still really hasn't hit me yet, that I'm going to be going away. It doesn't really help that my mom insist I come back every month to visit or that she's going to fly up there every month to visit me. -___- So much for the college experience mom.

Move in day is this Sunday, I'm so excited/nervous about everything! If things will go well, if I am able to get along with my roommate, if I like my floormates...so far, everything has been good with the meeting new people on Facebook so I hope they're just as nice IRL! I'm pretty happy that I bot to buy three new pairs of jeans and a trenchcoat. Not something you can classify as revamping your wardrobe but it's a start!

And because I saw this floating around of my f-list and I thought I wanted to try it.

1) Copy this list into your blog or journal, including these instructions.
2) Bold all the items you’ve eaten.
3) Cross out any items that you would never consider eating. Not doing because I'm always open to trying new foods. :]

( OM NOM NOM why am i such a fattie )

So today I woke up and I thought I was disoriented/dizzy because the room was shaking. I freaked out slightly and was like WHAT IS GOING ON HERE. Then I realized it was just the earthquake and I watched something fall off my shelf. After my mom called me if I was okay, I went online to see like everyone posting about the earthquake on their facebook. Hilarious! I can't believe so many people felt it, it felt like the earth was doing a body roll or something.

In other news, I got a gorgeous gorgeous new layout thanks to warywhim. ♥ Stole the pictures from karinberry so I hope you don't mind! Because RyoPin is my not so secret OTP. Lyrics are, of course, are from Jin's JOVEJUICE because that song is catchy harhar.

Waiting for the last episode of Last Friends to be hardsubbed so I can finish the series. Also watching Code Blue, Maou, and Yasuko to Kenji. For some reason I'm not enjoying Maou as much as I thought I would. It seems so...I don't know. It feels like it's dragging but since I'm only on the second episode, hopefully it will pick up.

I signed up for all my classes at Berkeley already! So I'm taking 17 units and I'm waitlisted for 1.5 Hopefully I'll be able to get those units but I might drop some because I don't know if I can handle so many units. I'll just wait and see! And I'm almost done making my dorm essentials list and I'm going to go shopping next week. I'm so excited~

So yesterday, a couple of my friends and I went to Universal City Walk for a free screening of the Dark Knight at the IMAX. We thought the movie would start at 6 so we showed up at 9 am. Cue the 10 hour wait in which there is much sun, I get a bit dehydrated/overheated, and there is a general air of geekiness and nerdiness from the hardcore Batman fans. We get our wristsbands at 3 and get let into the building at 4. Then cue even more waiting except now where everyone is crammed into one small space and me freaking out that the walls are closing in. Erica is claustrophobic and does not like it when there are strange people around her. D:< We get let into the actual movie room thingy (whatever the hell you call it) at 6 and finally the movie started at 7!

I only have a couple of things to say:

SJGHW4OITY-234YTHWERHGPSFYG-WFYSEOFSFS CHRISTIAN BALE ON THE IMAX SCREEN IS ONE HOT PIECE OF MANFLESH. LIKE SERIOUSLY EVERYTIME HE WAS ONSCREEN (which was a lot!) MY OVARIES ABOUT EXPLODED. I'M CONSIDERING WATCHING THE FIRST BATMAN JUST TO SEE HIM IN ALL OF HIS GORGEOUSNESS. Actually I'm now waiting for the movie to load harhar Oh Christian Bale, you were freaking amazing in The Prestige and now skfhsdkfhkewf *-*

and

F9WY8EYF036-R32-REGHSDHGS HEATH LEDGER WAS SUCH AN AMAZING JOKER. He was eerily twisted and psychotic and it mades shivers run down my spine and it's still hard to wrap my mind around it. His acting was so convincing and so chilling, I don't know what else to say.

So if you do ever happen to watch one movie this summer, MAKE THIS ONE IT! I'm not kidding, I'm seriously considering to go back and watch it again (WHICH I NEVER DO) because it was that mind-blowingly crazy. My mind almost exploded and my heart was racing throughout the entire movie.

Ummm, other than that, my summer has been pretty okay so far. I had some major shenanigans happen with my community college transcript but I had that all sorted out. I realized even though you're polite and courteous to someone who has royalled screwed up and may have jeopardized your future, they still act like a beotch and make it sound like you're a paranoid retard.

I went to my first rave, Electric Daisy Carnival, a couple of weeks ago. I believe everyone shuold go to a rave at least once just for the experience. Everyone was so nice, bass was kicking, and it was one of the most amazing nights of my life no lie. There's something about having the bass so loud that it's like your heartbeat is pretty cool.

Anyway, I've been trying to be on more and to comment more on your guys' entries so hopefully I'll be more invovled with what's going on with you guys. I love you all! <333

So my lovely darlings, I have a question to ask of you all. Well for those who are currently attending/have attended university.

How did you guys deal with such a drastic life change? I mean, graduation is still two months away but for some reason, I keep getting these really bad anxiety attacks.

I think my biggest concern is that I'm afraid I won't be able to measure up to all the smartness there. I'm afraid that I won't be able to keep up with the competition. Everyone seems so intelligent and they're like this SUPER students who have taken loads and loads of APs and extracurriculars and all this amazing stuff. I feel like I'm the only one scraping by with the bare minimum. I have nothing that stands out and I'm sure as hell not very career-oriented, I have no idea what I want to do besides teach English in Japan. :/

I'm scared that so many things will go wrong. I won't be able to get into the classes I need, housing is going to be hard to find,I won't be able to find new people to hang out with. I mean seriously, I have such good friends from high school and I don't want to break away from that comfort zone. In a few short months, we're all going to be scattered like dandelion puffs on the wind. It's going to be hard to see each other, what if we fall out of touch? That is the last thing I want.

I'm terrified of being so far away from home for the first time in my life. My childhood was basically handed to me on a silver platter; there aren't really any occasions where I have been truly independent and looked after myself. I'm going to miss my parents and my siblings. Who's going to look after them? The thought of not being able to go home on weekeds makes me sick to my stomach. I'll only be able to visit on holidays and breaks.

I'm scared I won't be able to look after myself properly. I might abuse my new independence and hang out with the wrong crowd and watch everything I've struggled for go down the drain. I want to be able to make good choices for myself but who's to say I might fuck my life up?

Everyone says that they see me at Berkeley, that with that particular atmosphere and my personality, I'll feel right at home. But what if they're wrong? What if I hate it?

There are times where I think I'll totally be capable and that I'll hold up my own against all the other students but more often than not, I feel really anxious and nauseous. I feel like crying and just crawling into bed to sleep so I won't have to deal with anything.

And I really need to study for APs. Which I really don't feel like doing....blah.

Okay guys, I swear I'm not dead. Haven't posted for awhile since I've been really sick and then school kind of ate me for awhile. I still tried to comment on your guys' posts and it looks like I haven't been part of any friend's cuts so I think I've been doing all right. XD;

So college acceptance letters will start coming in in a week. Homg guys, I'm so nervous. All the work I've been doing since forever will finally show some results. I'm sort of excited too since I will finally leave home and try to be more independent hahaha. But senioritis has been killing me, my grades are the lowest they have EVER been and it frustrates me because like two of them are borderline and I only need like 2% to go from a B+ to an A-. Fail.

I've been extremely MIA from my fandoms (especially Korean ones) so I guess I'll have to backtrack a bit to see how all of the boys are doing. ♥ Oh random but I was driving today and my sister put Big Bang's 'Last Farewell' on and we turned the bass waaaaay up. It was good times. 8D;

And a warm welcome to the new friends I found through the JE meme. I feel like it's going to be the start of a beeyooteeful relationship. XD ::is shot:: And a super super super belated birthday to the absolutely lovely phasera. Hope you had a good one!

So my lovelies, after months and months of putting it off, I finally cut my hair! It was getting really annoying, it would take forever to shower, my hair would take forever to try, I would get massive headaches because it was so heavy and people were always yanking on it when it was in a braid so thati was NOT cool. Plus it always got in the way when I was sitting down or trying to do something. I went with a sort of HYDE style and while it didn't turn out exactly like his, I was really happy with the result.

( Rapunzel-esque... )

I showered today and was freaked out by the amount of hair I had left. XD But I'm donating it to Locks of Love which is the place where they make wigs out of hair and give it to kids with cancer. :3 Finally, five years have paid off!